high.

its been so long, since the last time im writting in this blog....and now...im a bit confused bout myself. first, y the heck that im posting in english. sorry im not good in english. its weird, and hard to tell. ..m..m..maybe jz like what harry potter feels when he had those bad dreams and he saw what voldemort want him to see..haha....im insane...erghh...

    yeah...now im watching in study room, alone, with books on the table, and my phone playing "high" by james blunt...actually...i dont know where to start. i feel different than what i was a few days ago. bout last 2 weeks, i watched harry potter and the deathly hallows part 2. im a bit blur cause i watched harry potter since 1st, "the sorcerer's stone" until "goblet of fire"...then i missed the next episode and skipped to "deathly hallows part 1" and 2...so im lost the storyline. so, i take the all episodes of harry potter from my friends, transfer it into my laptop, wishing to watch it back from the 1st episode until the last.

    then last night, i watched the "goblet of fire", and i just done watching the 5th episode, "the order of phoenix" ... take time to understand the plot..and now, im possessed.... i feel like i am at hogwart...and and...i feel that im in that world...this thing keeps disturbing my mind. its not bad actually, it make me feels something that i never feel. i feel encourage...i feel independence...and....i feel like its only me who live in this world!...then i went to toilet, watching myself in the mirror, i take my "wudhuk" and perform "zohor" prayer...spend a few minutes in front of our Maker. I felt great!

   thats the first factor, maybe....the second is...when i was at home 2 days ago, online gaming...chatting wif my old friends....'facebook'ing... then i saw something, a pictures...where one of them is my friend, who sit right beside me in form5...they wearing labcoat...and, they will be a doctor someday...i started to question myself, what will i be someday...i woke up from my hopeless life...i want a better life...then i get the spirit...to have a better future...

   one more thing, the song that keep repeating on my phone, i set them...honestly im not sure what the song is all about...i got it when i watch a movie, i dont remember but the song was played in background...i love the melody...it cheers me, and it so calm...maybe you guys should try to hear it, dont judge a song only by hearing them once...take time, listen to it again and again...

    maybe those things....make me feel different now...i..i...i dont know how to feel sad, how to cry...and i feel so..so...spectacular...i want to keep this feelings all over time, i hope this will help me to live my life perfectly...now i aim 4 flat for this semester...thats the spirit...haha...struggling for vocab, i dont know how to describe more bout my feelings...but i guess its enough for now...just to share something...and for sure, when i have free time, i will continue watching that harry potter...thanks for reading





life is short, enjoy it.....in the right way :)

seram.

takde ape nak cakap sangat.... cuma da lebih 24 jam aq trime amanah yg sgt berat. mule2 ade org ucap takziah, aq tak pham sgt, knp takziah, ingt gurau2 je... baru skrang aku paham... bile tringat balik, meremang bulu roma. rasa macam mimpi buruk, apa2 pun, aq da buat pilihan, kite takleh patah balik masa. stiap yg brlaku pasti ade hikmahnya. jz nk ckp, trime kaseh kpd sume, especially sesorang yg sntiasa mmberi aku smgt dan pendorong...

    kpd sume wrga kmk yg sedang baca nieh, aku bkn org hebat utk mnjadi pmimpin yg hebat. kalau pun aq dpt jlnkan tugas dgn baik, tu bkn kekuatan aq, tp itulah kekuatan org2 yang mempercayai aku. sbrang kelemahan dlm tugas aku, itu sememangnya kelemahan aku. aku pnah terbaca, pemimpin yg hebat bkn kerana pemimpin itu percaya pada org di bawahnya, tetapi brgantung kpd kepercayaan org di bawah pimpinannya terhadap pemimpin itu sndiri...
aq akan cuba yg trmampu, cume jgn tinggalkan aku keseorangan :)







betulla org kata, setiap kejayaan seseorang lelaki itu, di belakangnya ada seorang wanita ...

semut.

haha ok ni utk 1st time aku letak tajuk ni dgn nama bnde hidup.

    semut ni satu antara natang yg aq respek gak la... kalau tak silap, aq pnah baca fakta, semut ni bole angkat bende yang 7 kali lebih berat daripada berat badan die sndiri. dan yg kite semua tau, semut ni satu natang yang sangat rajin. haha. cume skarang ni, ade insan yang lebih kurang macam si semut ni ...

    aku lah si semut jantan itu :O wakaka..cuma aku tak serajin semut itu. fuh, hidup di matrik ini, tak penah la aku memikul amanah seberat ini, ketua itu ketua ini, pengerusi itu pengerusi ini, jadi jawatankuasa perwakilan pelajar lagi plak tuh!!! giler!!. dugaan besar... belum rasmi lagi pgg jawatan tu da rase penat ... haiihh...

    aku harap Allah bagi aku kekuatan, aku telah menerima amanah yang lebih berat dari kemampuan aku sndiri macam semut tu, aku juga berharap aku diberi kekuatan dan kerajinan yang sama seperti semut itu... btw, tenkiu kpd sume kat luar sana yg memberi sokongan ... :)






ustaz kata, kalau ade nmpk semut jalan sorang kat diding ke, atas lantai ke, jgn bunuh die,, buat nye die doakan yg bukan2 kat kite, makbul, camane???

bulan.

wah, dapat chance nak bukak blog! takde ape nak cakap sgt... hari ni hari ke 10 aq brada di kolej matrikulasi kedah. semuanya ok, best. tidak seteruk mana. lecturer pon baik2, comey, termasuk la lecturer yang brpakain serba oren ade kat depan aq dlm comp lab skang ni, die tgah mngadap monitor die haha.

    student pon bole tahan dgn jumlahnya lebih kurang 2500 orang...lelaki lbih kurg 700 org, yg lebih tu ....... wow! setiap kali waktu antara kuliah, aku brjalan nk ke kelas lain, aq akan berada di tengah2 lautan bidadari .. wakaka ...apa2 pon komitmen aq nk belajar.

    bilik aq pon dpt bilik cam 5 bintang. tiap2 hari bole tgok matahari terbit dan terbenam...best kan kan kan kan !!! dan yg paling best,, malam tadi bulan mengambang penuh yg paling cantik aq penah tgok!

    ok la, lagi 10 minit kelas sains komputer ni nak abes, ape2 pon, aq dgr member2 aq kat luar sana ade yg nk ke u atau dah ke u, ade yg nk ke oversea, wish u all gudluck !!! adek2 yg tgah cuti sakan tu, hamboih... sronok cuti, study kene jgak...ok chaw, lecturer da berbunyi... bye...





sedare aku kata, dok shah alam, mrsm dpt kat kedah, matrik pon dpt kat kedah, ntah2 jodoh pon nnti org kedah. wakaka :)